by Wendy Euphoria
on 24th Dec 2019, 1:56 AM
its been a LONG TIME. I don't want to come up with excuses, life gets in the way of things and also turns things that were fun into chores to procrastinate. As much as I loved doing my comic between all the things that's gone on this year it was hard to want to do pages. Sometimes just sitting at home and doing nothing was more relxing, especially with all the things that went on this year. But things have gotten more relaxed and I've made commitments to my comic that are going to force me to do it. I'm not doing it cause I have to though, I love my comic and my art-- I want to love doing it and when I do do it, it's lots of fun; but again I couldn't justify doing more after doing so much (life stuff) and not taking time to like sleep and take care of myself. It was getting to the point where I'd get panick attacks from working too long or staying up too late. I just want doing my hobby to fit into my life without sacrificing other essential stuff.
It does make me sad to put things aside that ironically, made me less depressed but I guess that's what happens when you take hobbies a bit more seriously...
Anyway, I can't say I can promise a schedule, but my life is a bit more on track with less dramatic changes in store, so doing pages should be easier.A lesson I will take into next year is to not dedicate myself to things that wont guarentee myself success or help me grow in t he process. I have to manage how much of myself to give to other things and how much of myself, worth and time to put time into. I hope to do that more next year.